I'm Video Blogging!!!

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I know there's a few of you that check this page from time to time. I'm still blogging over at tumblr, but working on making it more like this page. Come over and check it out.

Fond Fairwell

Alright, I've decided to switch over completely and only blog on tumblr. Check me out there from now on. Have a great day.

To be or not to be

I really had plans do something else other than blog right now, but I need to get something off my chest. ITs something I struggle with all of the time on this thing- which is how much of my personal life involving other people do I get to talk about? For such a long time I have been really lonely and my posts involved all of my stuggles within myself. But now I am being a lot more social and I feel like 'well, that's my life, so that's what I'm going to write about'. I really don't ever set out to hurt people, I just react to how badly I am hurting in real life. I have said it over and over- this blog is my therapy. I put it into words and hope that maybe somewhere, in this big bad world, someone else has felt the same way. And when that is the case, and I'm not alone in my sorrow or joy, I get to remember that we are all human, living and breathing and my thoughts and feelings are shared.

Obviously I have a lot on my mind right now. And its gloomy and raining in New York and that always gets people introspective.

But tonight is dinner at Pure Food and Wine with my lady friends and I CANNOT WAIT. Also did vegan for lunch with my new frenchie friend. I am going to get back into practicing my conversational skills and then go to Paris to celebrate! Yay!

Sorry yal!

I don't know why I am trying to keep up two blogs. I am wondering if someone can help me. I prefer using tumblr for entering content, but I really actually like the look of this blog better. Is there a way to feed my tumblr into my blogspot? If you can help me and you are awesome, please e-mail me pronto!

Market Table

Kedar took me to lunch at Market Table today... and because the main lunch menu was lacking vegan options we just asked the chef what he could do... this is the result! It was amazing! Brussel spouts, mushrooms, sweet potatoes, and some greens. We also shared french fries (OMG, amazing) and I had a peppermint tea. It was such a lovely meal.

Food Journal

This is what I've eaten today:

Breakfast:
Quaker Oat Squares
Soy Yogurt
Frozen (bought fresh) Blueberries
One Peach
(all mixed together)

Snack (all day long):
Trail mix of Cashews and QOS

Lunch: Salad
Romain
Chick Peas
Peas
Mushrooms
Tofu
Cherry Tomatos
Crispy things
Olive Oil

Dinner (post workout)
1 cup of rice pasta (pre cook)
Broccoli
Cherry Tomatos
Chick Peas
Clove of Garlic
Olive Oil
all mixed up.

Also: one piece of gum for 20 minutes and 8 glasses of water (or around there)

Runner's Log

Wednesday, March 12, 2008:
6 miles, 51 minutes. I. KICK. ASS.

My Intention

I’m declaring my intention right now: I want to be a daily blogger for a big magazine, doing my “What I Wore” thing. Ideally, this will be a full time job. I’ll get access to the ‘closet’ to mix with my own thrift finds. In fact, part of my job will be to go thrifting Monday-Friday in the mornings. Then, I’ll come back to the office and style my outfits. Each day when I get to work someone will take a picture of me and I’ll talk about the outfit on the blog. I will also talk about the weather or how I’m feeling or something. Give it a human touch. Everyone likes that. Or maybe I will continue to take my own pictures, I’ll just get a really really rad camera (comes with the job). Alright, yes! I like this.

This is my intention.

Sometimes cold pad thai out of the fridge (two days old) tastes better than the hot kind.

Runner's Log

Sunday, March 9th: 4 miles, 36 minutes. Not feeling it at all!

When it rains, it pours...

Friday night, I get a call (mid date) from my land lady saying there's a leak in my apartment. I call back with no answer and figure its not that big of a deal.

Big mistake, big deal.

So I get home around midnight and see newspapers all over the place and a small trashcan completely full of water. And water everywhere else- rugs, tablecloth, shoes soaked and ruined and part of my covers were wet too. Ugh!

So I end up awake all night, feeling like I'm on a boat during a storm. It was pure misery.

I had a friend come over to help and being a genius, he went up on the roof, found the drain clogged with leaves and gunk, cleared it out and then, 45 minutes later, the dripping and dropping stops.

It was not the end of the world, but it was pretty effing horrible.

Eating Crackers with Grape Jelly

Instead of reading fashion magazines, I'm just watching Disc 2 of Season 6, SATC. Oh, delicious Thursdays...

Runner's Log

Tuesday: 3 miles, sub 30 minutes (can't remember)
Thursday (tonight!): 5 miles, 44:30
(4 mile time- 34 minutes)

Both nights felt great! Although I need some new running music. Kayne's Stronger is about to exit rotation.

E-mail Day!!

Yo! Today is gonna be a slow one in the office. E-mail me!

Also and

I am high on caffeine right now. Always euphoric.

Why I knew (know) today was (is) going to be (will be) a good day

This morning I got up, showered, realized I had a lot of time, so I put on this tune that feels inspiring to me, I sat cross legged facing my window, put my hands on my knees and told myself "I am so grateful"

I've realized something I think is "big". I am fan of The Secret, and the idea of being really grateful for what you have, and that way more things will come to you. I've realized that once you really practice actual gratitude that you don't have wants anymore! You don't want anything other than the feeling of bliss you get just accepting the moment, the now. Its so completely simple, but its SUCH A GOOD FEELING!

So I am sitting there, looking at the blue sky out my window, realizing today is going to be spring-like in NYC, and I hug myself and feel happy to be alive. And its that undescribable happiness- that's what I'm grateful for....

Feelings, etc.

Sometimes I am so happy, I imagine myself running up an invisible staircase and then just running over into a summersault. And then maybe flying away. Somedays it feels like walking is floating. Others, its like those horrible dreams when I’m trying to open my eyes (can’t) and run (can’t stand up).

Today is a staircase day.

Wise Words

DO NOT BURN THE CANDLE FROM BOTH ENDS.

you will end up a pile of gooey wax

Just so Yal Know

I am alive again. 4 days of bed rest, lots of water and echinachia (sp?) and all better. People need to calm the eff down on taking antibiotics for everything. Your body knows how to heal itself. And my body also knows when a doctor is necessary.

This rant is directed at everyone at my office that tried to diagnose me and tell me which antibiotics to ask my doctor for (the doctor I never went to, suckas!).

This rant is also directed at my horrible health care plan and how I did not want to spend $70 on doctor's visits and perscriptions, when I would just be better 4 days later.

Thanks!

Whoa Little Lady

Today I called in sick to work. I didn't get any sleep last night and kept waking up with alternating sweats and chills. But I really had no idea how bad I was until calling up take out right now. I sound horrible!! Thank God I stayed in bed all day anyway (but I am SOOOO bored and trying not to go to bed until at least 8 tonight)

B-smart

I hate it when people come to work sick. That's why it makes perfect sense that i left work early today to go home and be sick. So here I am, feeling crappy. Boo.

Reasons Why

Yo!

1. Just got home and had a banana and pumpkin/chocochip muffin for dinner. Yum!
2. I will not touch my sewing machine tonight. We need to "take a break"
3. I am in a good mood. One reason is that some guy eye-flirted with me at a bar tonight. A lot! I tried to move around so he would have a chance to talk to me, but he had no balls. Sorry for him! But I still feel good about a little smidge of attention. Yay.
4. Trying out these new number points. They are pretty cool.
5. I am also blogging over at http://lovepuppy.tumblr.com with daily one liners and re-blogs. If you have no attention span/a useless job I highly recommend it for keeping one's self busy. I am still putting up the butter here. (Don't worry)
6. Yo! Its Tuesday and today wasn't half bad and I am so thrilled to be alive!
7. Watching Mahattan the second 15 minutes. ;)

Before Bed...

Tonight I:

- Cut out a new sewing project (which is a secret for now)
- Zig zagged all of the edges
- Hem(m)ed (how do we spell that) another dress
- Ate another vegan pumpkin choc chip muffin (total today = 3)

And before bed..
- answer a few e-mails
- watch Manhattan until I fall asleep (which will be about 15 minutes, max)

Ok kiddaroos. I'm out! Word!

..the ugly

Sometimes when I don't like someone, I imagine she has horrible taste in music.

Tina Fey

= the most awesome woman ever. She is so effing COOL!

Today: Quick Notes

- Internet punks out, feelings of helplessness ensue
- Go to dreaded fitting with the worst dress ever made. Feel horrible, sick to stomach, just bad. Client is WAY too nice, says lets scrap it and make something else, without a deadline. I feel a little better, but still pretty horrible
- Come home, put on running clothes, lay down, sleep for 3 hours
- Get up, force my running shoes onto my feet, hit gym
- Start listing things I am grateful for like simple stuff (examples: I have eyes to see, I am human, I have choices, I live in a free country, I can choose the music I want, I have feet to stand on, I have income, I have privacy, I can choose my food, I can breath, stuff like that)
- Run 4 miles (37 minutes) and FEEL WAY BETTER!!!
- Come home, eat enourmous bowl of pasta (stomach ache, hello!)
- Clean up apt.
- Think about heming a dress. Decide I cannot sew for the next few days or I might never touch a needle again.
- Internet works again! Oh my God people like me. Nice comments and e-mails. Alright, happy again.
- Check tumblr and Oscar dresses. Some suck, some awesome. I think the preggers women look good.
- Thank you, I love you,
Jessica

Notes on a Beautiful Sunday Morning

Everyone says I'm a positive person, and yea, its true. But I'm the first to step up and tell you I'm human (as opposed to a robot?) and I have bad days too. Often. Like if it's nasty outside or if I am sewing a dress that is trying to rob me of my soul or if I'm home alone, in bed and asleep by 11 on a Friday or Saturday night (lets be real, thats the routine, not the exception).

But I wouldn't be so uplifted or positive without a pat on the back from time to time. My parents are my biggest champions- always letting me know how proud they are and how much they support me.

And then there's just random people. Those of you that found this blog on flickr or because of a weird google search. And you write me and tell me I'm better than bad, I'm good. And that matters. That's important to me. It makes me able to love strangers and the kindness that's floating around out there. Because there are a lot of people that actually make it their goal to make the world a better place. Being nice to another person, going out of your way to be nice- that matters.

Listen- I started this blog to document my life. Then it became my therapist as I poured my thoughts out, sometimes too many thoughts onto the screen. I don't know who reads this or how old they are. There's probably a lot of men and a lot of women. But to the people that read it and like it, thank you for letting me know. And also let me know if you have a fantastic brother in the range of 26-35 that's single, a doll and lives in New York. Extra points for vegans, artists and home owners (ya, that's a stretch).

I love being single...

..except on Friday nights.

Snow Day = Sew Day

We were let out of work early today to get home in a safe and orderly fashion. Which means I went straight down 39th street to stock up on fun sewing supplies for the weekend. After doing a lot of projects for other people, I decided I am in dire need of doing something for myself. Which means I making a fabulous pink frock to wear to my friend Julia's birthday party. Don't worry tho- it looks nothing at all like her dress.

Other weekend goals:
- Clean apartment
- Make Pumpkin/Chocolate Chip Vegan Muffins (oh, we shall see)
- Make at least one yoga class
- Run at least 8 miles
- Go on meet and great type date (could be awesome?) I'm not "worrying" about my love life right now, frankly because I am so in love with the rest of my life. But I'm excited.
- laundry and other bullshit. meh.

Ok. Iron on, sewing machine lit. Let's go.

Hallelujah!!!

This is my word of the day. For what we about to receive... something big is going to happen!!!

100 things (third try)

46. I hate the smell, taste and sound of celery. GROSS.
47. I never leave anything to the last minute. I have never pulled an all nighter, unless it was the 6th grade lock-in, which was awesome because my mom came at like 3 am to make cookies in the home ec room and everyone thought I had the coolest mom (I do).
48. Holy moly some oatmeal raisin cookies sound really good right now.
49. I love to eat. I love flavor.
50. I like men that don't remind me of any others. Otherwise, its always like you're trying to make guy #2 out to be like guy original in your head. It never works.
51. The only reason I use a calculator is to see how much money I make before/after taxes and what raises X and Y mean to me (which is usually nothing)
52. My pinkie fingers do not straighten. Ever. My brother and sister also have hands like this.
53. Babies love me. I am maternal.
54. So do parents. Unless I am dating their son.
55. Natalie Portman is my favorite young actress, Meryl Streep for an established actress.

Hey Universe

I am realizing how badly I need a dress form. Specifically in a 34/24/35 size. I think that's a 4 or a 2. Not sure, but I need need need one! And I am hoping someone out there in Internet-blogland knows someone that wants to get rid of one in above size. Help!

Card idea??

I'm thinking of doing a little card. I designed this one this afternoon. Comments?

Nerd Alert

I cannot wait to go home and open up my new Rowenta iron that I got on sale today (also got a tailor's ham, zipper and more bobbins). I love to iron! But with this Holy Grail of irons... I am going to have the most crisp wardrobe around town!

And I'm (obviously) using it as a (new!!) business expense.

Aha moment (although so small and simple)

We are so lucky to be human. To be able to communicate, to seek out the answers, to be able to do everything we can do. So go do it! Seek it out. Make it happen.

100 things (Part Deux)

26. I hate bad manners, especially in the subway.
27. I love Grace Kelly, but I don't think she's a good actress.
28. I drink my coffee with soy and 2 raw sugar cubes.
29. My favorite food is the chickpea (including humus and falafel)
30. I am a Sagittarius, on the cusp of Capricorn.
31. I prefer lakes to oceans.
32. I want to go on a leisure trip to Paris, with a man thinks my broken French is perfect.
33. I think New York is the best place in the world. Even with all its flawed denizens.
34. I want to be in Vogue. Me and my clothing. It can be a quarter page or a spread or even the cover. That works for me too.
35. I love outdoor food markets. The best I've ever been to was in Chicago. I can't wait until the day I shop for my foods daily outside. Like when I score my Union Square loft.
36. I want to live in a loft in Union Square!
37. I believe in fairytale love and I realize this narrows the pool of men who will find me (the whole package) attractive. But! Forgetaboutit! If you don't want to treat me like a queen, you can forget the idea of me ever treating you like a kind in return.
38. I think less of stupid people. People that do obviously stupid things. "I wasn't thinking" is not an excuse. Sorry!
39. Ewww. I cannot watch this scene in 2 Days in Paris (they are at the market with the pig. thank god I'm vegan) ewwwwwwwww.
40. I love cutting things out and up. I like scissors and knives! That sounds so scary!! (I mean it about paper and food. C'mon you sickos)
41. A good book feels like a new friend to me.
42. I am more excited about making friends with girls than I am with boys.
43. I want my children to be as wildly crazy about my parents as I am. I'm sending my kids to stay with their grandparents for at least a month in the summer. Maybe more.
44. I like making packages. Little presents and things for people. It makes me happy to make other people happy.
45. In reference to 44-- thoughtfulness gets you EVERYWHERE with me

She Sews Sweetly

I spent 5 hours tonight doing what should have taken 2 or less. Because I am obsessed with reading other people's blogs and checking my e-mail. And also because I decided to do a lot of hand sewing, but that's ok.

Bella Luna

Oohohh.. the moon looks so cool. I'm so happy that the sky cleared up enough for me to run down the street in my house slippers to see the awesome moon. Beautiful, beautiful. A total eclipse of the heart!

100 Things (about me)

I've been thinking about my recent posts on 100 things I want in a Man and on 20 something girls without boyfriends. An aha! moment- just because all these girls are awesome, doesn't mean they are right. I'm not right for a LOT OF PEOPLE! But I am very right for someone else. So in this 4 part series, I'm listing 100 things about me.

1. I sleep on the left side of the bed. I do not sleep in the middle and do not like the other side.
2. I cook myself breakfast (usually hot 5 grain oatmeal + fruit + soy milk or yogurt) everyday.
3. My favorite yoga pose is Bird of Paradise
4. I want to know God. I was raised Christian but wouldn't call myself one anymore. But I feel more religious and spiritual than I ever did when living in Indiana.
5. I think a lot of guys look like my brother and it makes it hard to concentrate when I look at them.
6. I look at other people's pace on their treadmills at the gym. I try to go faster.
7. I want to have children. Either 2 or 4. Not yet tho.
8. My dreams seem more real to me than real life. The good parts anyway. Nothing in real life can really be that bad (or that good- if it is, you say you must be dreaming).
9. I teter totter between being really spiritual and wanting to be really rich (so I can spend more time being spiritual?)
10. I believe in something bigger than this.
11. I like strangers. I like newness.
12. I am a dog person (like, born in '82 and having some big time puppy love)
13. I am the oldest child.
14. But the shortest.
15. My last two toes on my left foot are webbed.
16. I love to cry.
17. I cry about lots of things: sad things, happy things, movies, nostaligic things. It just feels good to me.
18. I have been in love a lot of times, for very short amounts of time. I don't have one great love. They were all great while I was there.
19. I am 1/16 Native American.
20. My great uncle Ed invented 911.
21. I do not have a TV. I like to watch/listen to movies.
22. I like NPR, because it makes me feel smarter. I sort of like that form of snobbery. The NPR snobs.
23. I love to daydream about what my life will be like. How I will feel when I meet important people- what will happen to me. Then, when things start coming true, they feel extra good. Its like I made that happen.
24. My first word was 'apple'
25. People need to be touched 5 times a day to not go insane. That's sort of scary, because I think I had two handshakes today and that's it. I do not feel weird hugging people. We all need to be held once and a while.

So that's part one. If there's anything you want to know, ask in the comments or shoot me an e-mail.

What the Eff??!?

It is so cold in my APT! Landlady Carole-- lets turn up the heat!!

Yay/Rah

Lets start from now and move backwards:

1. I like it when people say nice things to/about me. Strangers especially. I spent way too long trying to please people and make them 'like' me so I would have 'friends'. Lets just notices that 'friends and like' are in ''. If they don't like you the way you are, you're not friends. Bingo!

2. GREAT business meeting tonight. I am about to shake things up/become wildly more awesome than ever.

3. Oh yea. I received my Continental Gold Elite card in the mail and its glittery. Plus some drink coupons! Because who in the world wants to make herself more dehydrated than you already get on a 15 hour flight. (errr.. ok, sometimes I do have a glass of wine or two, its the midwest in me. Coupons? Something for free? I'll take two)

4. Also received $25 gift card to Macy's for just using my credit card. Woo! This is going to go towards a new iron! (oh, isn't she so daring?)

5. I like people. Lots of people. I am so excited to be focusing on fashion/design/friendship over boys! Yes I still talk about it, but that lonely longing heart is taking a vacation. Its time to relax and just be Jessica. It feels good.

6. Notes on the vegan thing:
* the weight: it just came off. Many people who go vegan will tell you the same thing. YOU EAT MORE FOOD (or you should) and the icky just comes out. I just feel so much cleaner and lighter.
* I love cheese, milk and an occassional omelette. But now that I have given them up OTHER foods taste better.
* If you're thinking about it, just try it for a few weeks. My goal is 6. But I like it enough that I am going to just keep it up.
* TKTC- this one is for you... it will force you to try a TON of new recipes (that I can try when I visit you in Chicago). You will amazing yourself (vegan chocolate mousse anyone?)

Today

Today is going to be a really good day. First off, it feels like a Monday, which we all know is better than a Tuesday. But because its Tuesday, that means we are all one day closer to the weekend that we just became so accustomed to.

ITs also going to be a good day because I know that its a LUCKY week for me. All sorts of good stuff is going to happen. ;)

Weekly Resolutions

I just read a great piece over at iCing about weekly resolutiongs. So here's the things I want to and must get done this week

* Thread, zipper, boning for upcoming party dress
* Construct above dress
* Fabric and above notions for my own dress
* Pick up labels, ribbon
* Sew labels, hem and photograph Beatnik dresses
* Gym x 2 (4 mile runs)
* Laundry Pick Up

Those are the "Musts." Here's some wants:
* Get up early enough to stop by Urban Spring for coffee/muffin in the AM
* Wear new outfits/combinations. Photograph AND Post in the AM
* Try new vegan recipe. It is SO EASY to maintain a vegan diet. I haven't made any major sacrifices, I don't miss meat (actually, the smell makes me kind of sick now) and so many places have options that are animal free. And when all else fails- I just ask the restaurant if they can help me out- and I've never had 'no' for an answer.

I'd also like to mention that since my vegan experience started, I have lost 10 lbs, a few inches (maybe an inch overall in the bust-waist-hips), my digestion is super smooth (never a tummy ache) and my skin is really clearing up. I've also felt totally immune to getting sick. When you're eating so many nutrient rich things, it makes totaly sense!! I just love this and would recommend it to anyone. You can still eat so many awesome thing! In fact-- MORE awesome things than before.

Now Showing...

I have watched/listened to so many movies in the past 24 hours:
- Sabrina
- Marie Anoinette
- Garden State
- Center Stage
- La Vie En Rose (now playing)

I think I need some new music. Suggestions?

Weekend in Review

- Cut out 4 dresses, nearly complete on 2

- Did a fitting

- Went to a brunch at Megan and Andrew's

- Ran 10 miles (total, 4 Friday, 4 Saturday, 2 today)

- Went to Urban Spring twice, drank 3 cups of coffee, two vegan muffins

- Did a little kitchen work of my own:

AMAZING Soy Yogurt Munchie

its nothing new, but tastes like heaven!

One cup of Soy Yogurt

A sprinkle of 5 grain oatmeal

A dab of agave nectar

Frozen blueberries and raspberries

- Just layer it up in anyway you choose! The frozen berries make it really taste like a dessert.

Why? Why! Why?!

Why is it that I can name at least 15-20 girls in their 20s who are absolutely remarkable and still single (not by choice)? Where are all the put together awesome men? Or is the ratio so small that they are already taken?

Men in your late 20s/early 30s.... its time to step up. CORRECTION: lets just stick to men in their 30s. I don't think I know a single guy in his 20s that has his act together.

100 Things...

After hearing about writing down a list of 100 things you want in a man from a co-worker and TKTC, I decided-- why not? I did a list in highschool and also in college, but I'm a different girl, so a different list is needed. I'm omitting a few entries that I deem too private. I also reserve the right to change my mind whenever I feel like it.

1. love whole foods
2. and sustainable living
3. cooks vegan and organic
4. unintimidating to me
5. treats others with respect
6. plays guitar
7. does yoga
8. has a dog or wants one
9. open communicator
10. loves foreign film
11. is totally impressed by me
12. hypnotic eyes
13. thinks Brooklyn is cool
14. writes me love letters
15. has a spark of "I will love you forever"
16. has a cool apartment- tended with care
17. makes me laugh
18. wants me in equal measure
19. honest but not hurtful
20. creative
21. interested in things I like to do
22. drinks red wine
23. wants to see me three nights a week
24. can't sleep without me
25. wants to travel the world on our honeymood
26. hosts fabulous vegan dinner parties- no one notices that the 'meat' is tofu
27. good dancer
28. soft hands
29. private
30. private
31. smells like organic soap
32. stylish, but not showy dresser
33. best friend
34. into nutritional healing
35. has a giving and caring heart
36. believes in past lives
37. ... the secret
38. ... 2012
39. ... other worlds
40. no nose hair!
41. parents have a loving marriage
42. has older sisters
43. encouraging
44. believes I can do anything
45. financially stable, but not showy
46. attentive
47. playful spirit
48. uses organic products
49. runner
50. likes to run with me at my pace
51. pushes me to do races
whoops. I skipped to
58. times and trains me at the track
59. asks me to move in after X months (because I'm not telling you that!)
60. always finding cool new music
61. does crosswords
62. has cried in the last year (and not because of a sporting event)
63. acts like I am the only person in the room
64. always ask me to 'taste this' when cooking
65. does like watching TV
66. doesn't like violence
67. really well read
68. votes (because it does matter)
69. see joy is all parts of life
70. loves beautiful buildings
71. fights back (with me), but not meanly
72. comforts and holds me
73. pushes me to make myself happy on my own
74. can sew his own buttons
75. likes to re-upholster furniture
76. loves his family
77. makes me feel welcome anywhere
78. gives great massages
79. very optimistic/hopeful
80. my completely perfect match
81. believes in soul mates
82. loves talking walks
83. does not feel too silly spinning in the grass
84. speaks a foreign language
85. makes me feel smarter being around him
86. just has that 'look' in his eyes
87. biggest life goal is to find me, have beautiful, healthy children and raise them in peace
88. sees the best in every situation
89. likes shopping for vintage clothse with me
90. has great taste
91. wants life to be 50/50 with me
92. playful youthness but not too innocent or naive
93. smart
94. extremely witty
95. sentimental, but not so much so
96. taller than me
97. likes to take walks (duplicate! woops!)
98. smiles (with a pretty mouth)
99. deep voice
100. articulate.

Now I will think up 52-57.

One Hour Project: Tee Shirt Update

I decided to do something for myself this afternoon. I cut off the old neckline from a tee shirt, pleated it out and put on a new neck band in black. I'm going to do this again and change up the design more (a deeper V). And I used this tee because I really didn't care if I messed it up too much. Ok results, will be much more h-h-hot when I do it to my ancient IU tee shirt (not too ancient, just looks like it from the many wash and wears)

Working...

So far today I have only been able to pattern draft and cut out fabric. Its only 4 and I've been a little ADD this afternoon. I know I could finish three dresses today if I felt like it, but I think I'm going to take a break and make something for myself. Then, later, I think I'll do all of the darts and tack all of the pleats in place. It is a three day weekend, afterall.

So Far Today...

*Got up, felt grateful to be waking up to a true blue February sky
*Cleaned closet
*Took a walk to Urban Spring, my favorite neighborhood spot, for some locally roasted coffee (with soy milk) and a pear/walnut vegan muffin. Talked with Gordon, the owner and happy guy who really wants to know about your day
* Listed 100 things I want in a man (everyone's been talking about this- thanks for reminding me TKTC!)
* Dropped off/picked up laundry
* Showered and scrubbed down
* Made apple oatmeal with soy milk, agave nectar and flax seeds. Yum.

NOW: its another sewing Saturday. Wearing my "I AM SEW AWESOME" shirt from Jason and getting fabric cut and marked today. E-mail me if you're interested in your own custom order!

Do What It Takes

To feel good. Here's my go-to list:

1/ running whilst listening to Kayne's Stronger on repeat. It gets me so hyped up that I run into the treadmill a lot. So then I go faster. Harder. Stronger.

2/ Coffee with soy milk and two cubes of raw sugar.

3/ Checking tumblr.

4/ Receiving e-mails from strangers- a virtual hug or pat on the back. To realize we are all human, one reader told me. Little friendly gestures really make me happy.

5/ My vegan diet. Trying all sorts of new things (in love with rice 'pasta', tofu spread (i/o cream cheese), my daily Udon. Today was my 23rd day animal free. 28 days makes a habit, and I'm really happy about that.

6/ Listening to New Soul by Yael Naim.

7/ Reading Eat, Pray, Love which puts to paper so many of the daily thoughts I have about being a passionate, ultra loving person and not being able to find that returned from a partner (all of my relationship have ended because I wanted too much, was too needy or maybe gave too much).

8/ Sitting in bed,